You never looked so good
as you did last night,
underneath the
city lights.
Baby, i'll
find a way
to shine
just for you.

Saturday, March 29, 2008

out.


Nonsense. Stupid.
Can't I bloody have any stupid privacy of mine?
Why are people coming to spoil my mood every single day?
It's effin 11;15am. Giving me that stupid attitude at this hour? When you just fucking woke up?
It was bad enough yesterday night. Okay things are getting out of hand.
Why am I appearing like I'm so absolutely fine, when I'm seriously breaking down?
Because I don't wanna worry you.
& now every single thing I do, you wanna have a say in it.
Fucking let me make my own decisions will you? I'm a big girl already.
I need space of my own, let me breathe please.
I really need someone, & I have someone.
I know he won't be there forever, or maybe gone for very soon.
Yes I know & I'm aware of the consequences.
I don't care. I just wanna be.. depending on him.
I'm tearing, gosh, just what's wrong?
I need a break. learing everything here.
Can I?