You never looked so goodas you did last night, underneath the city lights. ♥ ♥ ♥ |
Baby, i'll find a way to shine just for you. ♥ ♥ ♥ |
|
Friday, February 29, 2008Welcome back twin (:Firstly, welcome HanXiang back from india (: Don't leave s'pore already okay? Everyone misses you sosoosoooo badly ): Now that I'd no more burdens, I'd concentrate everything on my studies (: Studying hard tho I skipped school =x Okay, things were fine today.. Was late again. zz I'm tryin' hard to wake up kay, stop calling me lazy bum. Went to meet Thovan at Marina Sq after my daily routine. Walked around, had lunch + dinner & he haven't buy anything. ): Oh ya got my Birthday pressie, Big, huge strawberry w choc coating! Jealous eh? =/ Then went down bunk after that. & it's like damn big group lah, 30 people in total. Rofl, can go riot-ing somemore w twin's big luggage, can keep parangs ROFL. Went to eat & talked really really alot w hanx, I MISS YOU LAH TWIN (: Coco was always by me.. Listening, thanks sweetie x3 Oh yea, talked to him. (: Satisfied.. Dinner was fine, though I didn't ate =x Cabbed home w hanx while th others went...... ( I don't know where ) On th way home, talked bout our recent doings & stuff.. We're gettin' back like th old days aren't we? (: Letting go, doesn't mean losing, you might just get back more that you'd expected or wanted. Be optimistic, & I still love you Sayang.. (: Picking up slowly, doing what I should do.. Really studied kay, & I guess I'm doing fine.. Mum's happy, & I'm pleased. Just like I'd just placate a child.. lovelovelovelovelove buddies&Schoolmates (: Thursday, February 28, 2008;Yes, we spoke. I do miss you darling. (: The few meetings were cancelled, & now that I haven't seen you for near one week. I really really missed your smell, your hug, your kiss, you warmth & your love. Yes, it's hard but I gotta let go.. My heart's always with you, let me have faith with you alright? I believe you'll get back to my side, just one day.. My misses had all changed to the energy to work. Pilling myself with work.. I do feel better. (: Every single thing reminded me of you, I guess, I shouldn't hold on anymore. The sacrifices made aren't getting me anywhere.. Good luck darling, I guess we'll really let nature take its course.. x33 Sayang. (: Wednesday, February 27, 2008English Lesson (:Guys, good news to announce! I'm feelin' better after the few days of sobbing & whining.. (: I'd slowly picked myself up. Doin' what I should do. Han, great improvement (: & I must thank all of you. x3 Dearest Irwin, mardy, coco, keith, cai, maomao, weisheng, manda etcetc. Comfort me & stand by me throughout. heh (: See, I'm smilin & I love that Loreal shampoo! My hair's so soft now! Okay, Look at th titile. It's English Lesson today. B'cause han have this habit of reading & reading her blog all over everytime hence this shall be my small English handbook, yea I know it's abit stupid but it's fun when you learn new words :D Comeeeeee, a quiz for everyone x3 #1. Salacious ( sa LAY shus } ; I. Scornful ;II Lustful ;III Greedy ;IV Envious. #2. Prissy ( pussy eh? =x ) ; I. Upset ;II Timid ;III Humble ;IV Prim. #3. Placate ; I. To jolly along ;II Calm down ;III Enthral ;IV Please. ~ ~ ~ Answers :D #1. Salacious ( sa LAY shus } ; I. Scornful ;II Lustful ;III Greedy ;IV Envious. #2. Prissy ( pussy eh? =x ) ; I. Upset ;II Timid ;III Humble ;IV Prim. #3. Placate ; I. To jolly along ;II Calm down ;III Enthral ;IV Please. & Lustful; lecherous; lewd & Prim; Fussily respectable & placate; pacify; appease Ding donggg ~ Boys & girls good bye. :D SLEEP - Tuesday, February 26, 2008Tried; 1This is the first day that I'd really really tried, yes it's tough. When I woke up in the morning. I'd realised, I'm late.. Well, I'm lazy, with swollen eyes & I'm really tired.. Hence, slept till 12 & that woman came in screaming and yelling. Okay, I know, but we all have reasons don't we? sigh. Woke up with cold sweat all over.. I don't know why, I guess I'm falling ill.. I tried not smsing him, and ended up I still did.. I really missed him that's why.. Darling, why is it so that you didn't wanna reply me.. Everyday replying my texts seemed like a chore to you. Sigh, why.. Darling, I missed you. Tears can't help but fall.. I love you. Nic & Corn both proposed.. I'm so envy, why is it that people can be loved but I can't? Sigh, maybe I'm just not deserved to be love.. I'm fine, life'll still go on. & sorry for being so complacent the past. I'd changed. Rihanna - Cry, A song to describe my feelings. I'm not the type to get my heart broken, I'm not the type to get upset and cry, 'Cause I never leave my heart open, Never hurts me to say goodbye, Relationships don't get deep to me, Never got the whole in love thing, And someone can say they love me truely, But at the time it didn't mean a thing. My mind is gone, I'm spinnin' round, And deep inside, My tears I'll drown, I'm losin' grip, What's happenin'? I stray from love, This is how I feel. This time was different, Felt like I was just a victim, And it cut me like a knife, When you walked out of my life, Now I'm in this condition, And I've got all the symptoms, Of a girl with a broken heart, But no matter what you'll never see me cry. Did it happen when we first kissed? 'Cause it's hurtin' me to let it go, Maybe 'cause we spent so much time, And I know that it's no more, I shoulda never let you hold me baby, Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart, I didn't give to you on purpose, Gotta figure out how you stole my heart. My mind is gone, I'm spinnin' round, And deep inside, My tears I'll drown, I'm losin' grip,What's happenin'? I stray from love, This is how I feel. This time was different, Felt like I was just a victim, And it cut me like a knife, When you walked out of my life, Now I'm in this condition, And I've got all the symptoms, Of a girl with a broken heart, But no matter what you'll never see me cry. How did I get here with you I'll never know, I never meant to let it get so personal, And After all I tried to do, Stay away from lovin' you, I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know, And I won't let it show, You won't see me cry. This time was different, Felt like I was just a victim, And it cut me like a knife, When you walked out of my life, Now I'm in this condition, And I've got all the symptoms, Of a girl with a broken heart, But no matter what you'll never see me cry. This time was different, Felt like I was just a victim, And it cut me like a knife, When you walked out of my life, Now I'm in this condition, And I've got all the symptoms, Of a girl with a broken heart, But no matter what you'll never see me cry. All my life... Monday, February 25, 2008Abandoned-Remember those times when we were together, I held on to your face. Looking deep into your eyes, you knew I'd loved you, we used to be so sweet, so close.. & then you left me. Left me alone facing the cruelty of the reality. You're leaving me.. I'd tried dear, I'd really tried to stop things. Everything you're doing is hurting me. How could you be so fine, leading your life on like it doesn't affect you at all? Is there me in your heart? Or is it that I'd never existed. Everything you'd said I'd remembered it straight down my memory. Because you just matter that much. Darling, when you're out there, I'm crying in misery. I'd never thought of getting hurt, I'm just too pampered, the complacent girl. Never to expect getting hurt like this. Why is it so? Yes true, I'm difficult to understand, I refrained myself from being open to all of you. Because I'm afraid of getting hurt, I'm afraid to show the real me.. Till I'd met you. Darling, you're my everything. I gave up almost every single thing for you. But you haven't even start to appreciate me and everything just ended. Yes buddies, it's just sucha short period of time but why am I getting so miserable over it? Because I did my best.. There's nothing such as " commit too much " because you'd do everything you could for the person you love. Remember the time when you lied on my laps. and how I gently stroked my lil fingers on to your face.. It feels so nice.. & slowly. we kissed and hugged. It felt real warm. Darling, I was really very open to you. Because you were my everything. Till that day when you shoved my arms off you. It really did hurt. Darling, why are you ignoring me.. why didn't you talk to me? I know I'm the cause of the whole incident, but do I really deserve this? I'd told myself not to let this affect me, but it's seriously impossible. I'm living in agony.. Crying myself to sleep, finding someone to talk to the whole time.. I'm afraid of being lonely.. I want you. Yes, he dont deserve that humiliation. but do I deserve this treatment from you? I can't control my feelings anymore. I'm sorry, I really wanna give up and stop pestering you. But I can't I'm missing you the whole day, with no appetite, I feel so weak, I feel like I'm drifting apart from my soul. It's so miserable. It's difficult to fake a facade. No matter how hard I tried, they would find out that I'm trying to hide. Why is it so? I really hate this. C'mon stand up han, you silly girl. Why.. why so stupid, why so silly. Why are you suddenly so vulnerable? Why are you crying, Hold back your tears.. Simon, I love you. |
HAN;
0409 Moving on. Dependent Hostile <3
SMU; Pink Havainas White Num Bag Gucci wallet Fragrance Princess by Vera Wang Flower by Kenzo Gucci -- The Hulk It's a Boy Girl thing Money return This week's timetable Slack 19/08/08; Tuesday School; Horntail School; Extra Lessons! 21/08/08; Thursday School; Gym 22/08/08; Friday School; Bunk 23/08/08; Saturday - 24/08/08; Sunday - Leave me somethin' affiliates
Bengified; versionLex Mard Ting Jas Hooda Shawn Harris Ysabel Thaqif Cassy Shadow Diana Yong kian Michelle :D Senki Jolene blabla blabla Layout & Graphics: Hilary You used to tell me; My Not So Secret Lives endinghere Give it t youuuu ;Dhere Closed;here It'll never be happy.here It's no longer a happy birthday..here ahahahahahahaha;Just reached home <3Started talkin...here Somehow, just dont feel like sleeping; 1;40am.Just...here " Somehow, it sucks to see you leading on fine. "y...here STUDDDYYY!here ;TiredNow playing -- Kidnap my heartStudy Study St...here Archives February 2008 memoirs March 2008 memoirs April 2008 memoirs May 2008 memoirs June 2008 memoirs July 2008 memoirs August 2008 memoirs September 2008 memoirs March 2009 memoirs Music! |
|