You never looked so goodas you did last night, underneath the city lights. ♥ ♥ ♥ |
Baby, i'll find a way to shine just for you. ♥ ♥ ♥ |
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Sunday, August 31, 2008Closed;Blogs are th roots of trouble. Therefore, it's closed. (: It'll never be happy.I dont get why everything's happening this way. Thank you daddy for celebrating w me tgt w ben, xian, didi, gibson, karen.. I love you guys x3 yes, more & more misunderstandings occurred. Somehow, it just suck t be like this. Why is it so, why is it that everything just came at th wrong time.. Th wrong people.. & those horribly coincidences. Somehow.. Felt like I need a break badly.. Tears just cant help but fall. Things after things, conflicts after conflicts.. It didnt seem like it's gonna stop. I wanna find someone t talk to.. but, why does it seems so difficult. Everytime I wanna utter somethin' it just.. seems t be a force stoping it. Swallowing everything t myself. Everything that I've blogged are very vague, no one's gonna know what happen unless asking. But, it's just so difficult to share my burden. It seems like theres no one suitable. Friday, August 29, 2008It's no longer a happy birthday..Now Playing -- Fall for you Yea, it's no longer a happy birthday.. Realising how some friends can be like.. & how families gives up on youu. Yes, I know its all reality. I still appreciate those people who stood by me.. & those who wished me happy birthday.. I love you guys; you all still remember! ;D Somehow, you'll get t know & realise who are those who you can really depend & confide on.. Yes, I'm still a child, without many knowledges. I do agree, I grew up a lil more cunning but vulnerable to people whom I really like. Apparently, I'd always get taken advantages of. I swear I do appreciate people around me. I love you mummy, I care alright.. (: Alot of problems occuring. & I'm gonnaaaaa get rid of allllllllllll of it! :D Friday, August 22, 2008ahahahahahahaha; Just reached home <3 Started talking t denden; Limbeh. Okay, today limbeh's post is so gonna be crude! Limbeh's new name is Saleisha Tan. LOLOLOL. The American Next Top model's name. Okay, enough w those madness. Went Hong Kong Cafe for my three-meals-a-day. ;X Muah chee, maggie mee, lychee drink, Mango Ice Kachang. Super filling. x( Today watched Meet Dave, fucking funny okay. "I'm gonna fetch you the moon" Awwwww, so sweet. ): Okay, rate it 3½ out of 5 :D Then went bunk to slack & zak saw my beloved papa <3 AHHH ! Misses * Nothing much happened, went home after that ^^ Anyway, find the world so realistic. Cause this guy that knew me years ago when I still look like a big fat, tanned, fugly girl whom actually bad mouthed about my looks; came to add me in friendster. That's pretty shocking. I doubt he know that was that fugly girl! Anyway, had a great laugh LOL (: PICTURES ! W Mardy! :D   @ Th Cafe    Cam whored              Monday, August 18, 2008Somehow, just dont feel like sleeping; 1;40am. Just finished pure biology. Only covered half the chapter, hence continue-ing tomorrow. well, today's quite a disappointing day.. Ben, I'm utterly disappointed. Even those effort t help you confirming th attendance, you don't even wanna make some effort t find people & conduct that stupid run. Just going mia & what excuse are you gonna use th next time rd? Helping you time after time, siding you time after time. You still never change.. Well, leopard doesn't change its spots & this is what you're like. Doesn't appreciate never mind, but why cant you just do what you should do. making everyone so pissed off, withdrawing from it. I guess that's what you wanted yea? After that, went home.. & bought some stuffs t cheer myself up. & therefore promised myself the diet plan.. Fruits, mineral water, & non oily food. x fast food x fried food & plenty of exercise. F. people t go gym w me during Wednesdays & Thursdays! ): Alright, friends please help! Oh ya, kinda came up w this wish list for birthday w Gibson ;x Th thought of it makes me excited! xP #New wallet #NUM bag #Faint pink havianas #Shades; black #Jacket/Hoodie #Top shop pink/purple wooden sandal #New tops; forever 21, top shop Okay, I'm not being greedy hor! ;X Goodnight, try to fall asleep ): Sunday, August 17, 2008" Somehow, it sucks to see you leading on fine. " yea, very selfish of me. (: Don't know what's w me.. Getting so emotional over everything. I really love you guys, the care & concerns, & really apologise for all those unreasonable times. The scolding, venting of anger.. I'm just so sorry. Somehow, I get so stressed up, emotional & irritated. Just, without a reason. It's scaring me.. & everyday I just need less than 4 hours of sleep.. I feel like I'm breaking apart for everything. Mentally, physically. I wanna do my best, & prove those who didn't believed wrong. Yes, I did. My achievements, & now more of it. Suddenly, felt so lost.. & somehow.. I don't know what I should do.. Other than studying, studying... & more studying... Don't break down, stop throwing your temper. You're not a princess. You are just someone who needs to learn how to handle your stress. It seems like those people whom I hate are like... a mirror of me.. Hence, having the same destest-ful personality.. Gosh, what's happening.. I'm lost. Help me please. Thursday, August 14, 2008STUDDDYYY!Mood; Tired. Helloo there! Aye, I sure do miss you peeps a lot ]; Today is exams week which is apparently... killing me. I'll be so dead luh. But at least, I studied (: Sleep at like 3am almost everyday. & caffine's th only thing keeping me wide awake thruout th exams. My face, is a disaster once again. *claps* Then, felt irritated super easily. Come to think of it, somehow I do love to disturb people dont I? For instance, I was like, "Can you just shut up?" to th girl infront of me in th que. Fucking noisy luh, shouting across. Your house ah? Then mard was looking at me, then look at her *rolls eyes*. Hahh! We're sure bitch. Then.. went to Grand Park Hotel or something like that to study. At first, th feeling was nice, classy & a lil romantic theme. Then, after hours of camping in th room, it was just normal. Yea, nice view.. Bath tub.. But normal luh. It's a five star, but it seems four to me.. Never mind, anyway. I studied like MAD! & you know what, the air condition is like effin cold. Can't understand what are those people thinking. Oh ya, mummy brought some bigbig shirts for me t wear. Then, asked me t accompany her down to CITY HALL w that. Gosh, so unglam. But guess what? I dont careeeee. x) Okies; received presents when I've reached home. Maple syrup & Vanilla fudge from dad! & It's from Canada! ;D I love you daddy <3 #1; My companions infront of my 22" desktop #2; Pressies! #3; This is th result of intensive study. x[    Monday, August 11, 2008;Tired Now playing -- Kidnap my heart Study Study Study week! Time passes so fast; Birthday coming soon.. Who wanna celebrate w me? heh, same old people.. must be. suddenly felt empty; though contented (: He's not acting like himself; I'm lost. But for now, I have to concentrate on these stupid exams first. Went bonkers days ago; things aren't acting right. Some nicotine please. Spoke t a lot of people; & I'm really sorry if I'd said anything harsh. anw, today went studying at cathay; Mango Passion Fruit :D After that went t movies w hanxiang, tou etc. LOVE GURU ! cute movie, w stupid stunts. x) Oh ya, trailer on bunny house or somethin like that; okay that movie is bimbo enough; its a must watch! Quotes for the day -- "This isn't a brothel", "Oh, I'm not looking for a soup here" -- " This is a present for you but make sure you return it to me tomorrow. "   Sunday, August 10, 2008" It's hard to be like you, I dont understand how can you entertain so many people. " I don't want it to be like this either. I.. just want a break from every single thing. I want time for myself, doing what I wanna do. Fuck that popularity, fuck that guys texting you. fuck those words that you-thought-you're-happy-after-listening. I just want friends.. I dont wanna make use of people. I just.. I dont know, I'm just tired. I don't wanna lose anyone of you. I don't wish to hurt anyone of you either. I'm just a lousy bitch. What's with that two phones? What's with that having someone to keep you accompany 24/7 Do you feel fucking proud? You're just fucking plain stupid shihan. Wake up from your fucking stupid idea. You aren't pretty, you aren't good. You just want to be the best. But how did you achieve it? Fucking through schemings. Fuck, I had enough of myself. Enough, sick and tired. I just.. want some peace of my own. I dont want all those attention. Give me some space to breathe. please.. Wednesday, August 6, 2008;people are complaining asking me to update my blog; alright I shall update now ;x Skipped school like crazy for the past week. A lil' lost and confused. But dont worry, I'm back, knowing what I want. & what to do. (: Did a lot of thinking; alot. Peiwei; I can never forget those times where you played with my lashes, stroked my hair & smellin' it asking me what brand shampoo it was. Those times where you look into my eyes, tellin' me how much you loved me. & I can never forget what happened. I can remember exactly what you said & did that day. I'll remember it & the rest of my life. I can never expect you to say what you'd said.. All those selfish words from you. How heartless can you be? Sometimes, I asked myself.. Is this the peiwei I knew? Is this that guy whom I'd once loved the most? 3 months had past.. I hope you're fine. I do miss you but I'd let go. Promised to be strong, to let go. The last time I'd told someone about us, I haven't shed a single tear. I'm proud of myself. You're a memory. You're just someone who I'd met & walked past. You aren't someone important. Not anymore.. Daddy; I'm so sorry for not being able to understand what you'd did.. Sorry for all those unreasonable times, I'm selfish I know.. I'm sorry for not knowing your miseries. Those things that you'd went through & those words from my mouth. Those cruel stuffs. I'm sorry daddy. I promise to do you and mummy proud. Trust me. There will be changes in my life. I promise. & I wouldn't let you down.. I love you daddy. Boy; I'm sorry if I'd said anything or do anything. I just know I wanna keep you.. & I don't wanna lose you. You know.. I can't bear to. I want you to stay by me. Like how you used to and.. forever. I'm sorry. At least give me a chance to explain myself will you? I love you & I wanna keep you as a friend. Please.. Don't be like this..                   |
HAN;
0409 Moving on. Dependent Hostile <3
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