You never looked so goodas you did last night, underneath the city lights. ♥ ♥ ♥ |
Baby, i'll find a way to shine just for you. ♥ ♥ ♥ |
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Monday, June 30, 2008Sigh.A uber busy day. Woke up late early in the morning, realised it was 6;48 already, rushed for my clothes and washed up.. It was already a bad start. Went school for lessons, trying hard to keep myself awake. Well, I did try, & there's improvement. Nevertheless, I still slept. Rushed home at 2, bathed and stuff then rush out to meet Gibson. Hope everything's fine. (: Really hope so. Don't hurt yourself alright. Received countless sms-es, god give me some time.. Didn't have enough time to study, spent my time today settling my stuffs. & explaining.. Not really in the mood, plus I'm feeling sleepy alr. Denver; Sorry.. Can't be there for you, & kinda neglected you. Don't be too stressed out. Everything'll be fine. Just, cheer up. I haven't seen you this moody before. Hope you'll feel better tomorrow. Gibson; Boy, thanks for everything once again. Remember to have your meals & not to stay out too late at night alright. (: P.s " you're just so busy with every other thing and people, you just don't have time for yourself " -- Mum. Saturday, June 28, 2008Will you stay?I just want you to remain like this. I'll do anything. Just be there, you're someone whom I know will always be there. Every moment I shouts "Gibson!" you'll reply.. Everytime I calls you, you'll pick up. If you doesn't I'll call & call & call. You're the one who will keep me accompany every time after time. Out, shopping, bunk, movies. Everything. You're already a part of me. I knew this would happen. Maybe, it's my fault. But all that doesn't matter. I just want you to stay here. Be the one whom will assure me that he's there.. Be the one, whom I can trust and confide in everything. Don't leave just like that. If you want, I'll stop all my nonsense. Just stay there will you. Don't leave like how peiwei did. This is hurting.. Please, dont just leave me like that. Suddenly, everyone makes me think how vulnerable friendships are. I am helpless, I can't do anything, the only thing I can do is to wait. & to hope for you to be back by my side. Weiting, if that's what you want go ahead. Don't backstab me as I do it infront of you. C'mon, wake up your idea. Don't have to come to my blog to spamm in the chatbox. Well, if it's not you, I guess it's someone else. Lol, fancy calling me fat when you're the old fat whore. Well that sentence doesn't refer to anyone, it's just for "someone" (: Oops Friday, June 27, 2008haha; hehe; hohoMood; GREAT! Alright, I've got no idea whyyyyyyyyyyyy am I like so happy. Studied for 2 hours last night! *Prouds* School was... Tiring, bored, short. Well, did nothing much, sleep, lessons. SLEEP (: Then, rushed back home after lunch w winz and qif. Well, not really lunch, just ice cream =x After that, headed home and rest. Gosh, I felt like sleeping and sleeping. & Never wakee up! ): Okay, I know I'ma lazy bumm! Then, slept till 4+ gotta wake up cause Gib's reaching =( Alright, bathe, washed up and stuffs. Met Gib at mrt at.. 5.50pm =x So called jy to tell him that I'll be late. He told me that he'll be late too. LOL that noob =x Anyway, train all th way to douby, met jy. went to buy my pearly soya milk =x bunk, ht hththt ~ Anyway, at the start of the HT some fat ass scolded me. Haha, too bad. I'm too nice to scold her back =X Then, htht ~ caused a death to someone due to my carelessness. Anyway, he's kind enough to tell me: " nvm =) " Awwww, heart melts* =X After ht, hanx scrolled finish my overall, god. I LOVEHIM :D Then, ahma ~ went to eat and then went home. Was like uber shag............. Posting some pics! The lab me, the shag me. =( Nights all! Lights out* P.s I realised I cant multi task =[ LOVELOVELOVE denden x3   Thursday, June 26, 2008-Aye, whats wrong w me today. kinda.. sad bored. Gibby didnt meet me today. A lil disappointed. Well, Winz said I looked sad, as if I'm gonna cry.. ha, I dont know why either. Mixed, confused feelings. Maybe, this is what I get.. upon doing some stuffs. Aye, I just feel insecure. I don't like to share.. well, human beings.. My guy, my closest friend.. whatever. I just hate to share. I'll feel so uber jealous. Sorry if I'm like super emo tday. but.. No idea. Maybe if you guys keep me accompany more I'll feel better? Good night, gonna study. (: Wednesday, June 25, 2008HeadacheGuys, finally a new out look for my blog. Finally.. I've got something to do. To settle down. School was sucky. Slept for 6 hours, study for 1 =x Alright, trying hard. At least I refrained from sleeping. haha. Shan't talk much. Just post some pics :D story for the pics; Once upon a time, han was falling asleep in class as it was the first day of school, then her friend invited her for lunch at pizza hut! She went pizza hut with her friends, singing along her way.. When she reached, she was soooooo enthu & took some pictures! Upon receiving her meal, she ateeeee as if she haven't been eating for years. Then, the clean pans and bowls.......... To be continued... * Good night. x33 Denver.    Monday, June 23, 2008-When you realised.. How vulnerable every single relationship can be.. No matter what ever you do. Some relationship can never ever be the same again. Because you'd given it up; in other words, you dont even bother in the first place. You asked why am I always letting people taking advantages of me, getting bully.. Because that's give & take. I do gain from them, or that they're just so dear to me. I did all that to keep them, because I understand how important is the presence of everyone. Yes you're right. They don't deserve it. I shouldn't shed tears for them. Frankly speaking, I cant help it. I cant help to feel bad. Maybe, you guys see me as a flirt. See me as a total bitch. Well, I'd never denied that. But once I really fall in love, it's really in love. Dont make me do that. I dont wanna.. be hurt once again. Because, those feelings will be gone.. Very soon, or meybe. for some it doesnt matter at all. Do you think peiwei cared? no, he'd never. all those selfishness.. I'd just swallow it down. Yes, sick of this life. Sick of being too nice. To everyone. Whereby, people just tend to take me for granted. Thanks for all those care and concerns. Dont be too nice, I dont wanna fall into it again. Not for now. You know, all along I've cared. All along, I've been wanting to support you. Apparently, Im just someone.. unimportant. To most of them, Im just someone like this. Isnt it? Friday, June 13, 2008:DAlright, I haven't blogged really frequently nowadays ya? Things are getting on fine. I really do miss mardy and winz ;( hope everything's finee for you guys too! :D Oh well, it's a lie saying that I've let go. But buddies, dont worry. I'm really moving on. Yes, I view her blog almost everyday. Well, she isnt that bad as Ive thought of. Maybe, she really do suit him more. Han, has to be single afterall. I'm fine, but do understand if I get all emo just all of th sudden alright, because.. yea, those thoughts, I cant stop them. Busy working, & training after that. aye, bored. P.s , Sillyboy, I've add you, dont worry :D x3 loves. Tuesday, June 3, 2008;For this whole week I'd been doing super riduclous things. Sleepless night, one worry. Then, I realised. Everything can never go back how it used to be like. It's all the past. You can never get it back. Just move on, stop hoping that I'll be the same. It'll never be the same again. Never. I wanna go walk around, peacefully.. With a great friend, or maybe myself. I dont expect anything more. I just wanna know truths. I promise, I'll let go, and I really will. Riduclous me, making mistakes at work.. Stupid me, ends up hurting myself. Silly me, trying to do the impossible. Sigh, what am I trying to do? I've got absolutely no idea. Confused, trying to tell myself, I'll be fine.. haha, stupid. Thanks to my friends. I love em ;D <3<3<3 |
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