You never looked so good
as you did last night,
underneath the
city lights.
Baby, i'll
find a way
to shine
just for you.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

My Not So Secret Lives ending



Today's the day.

I felt a sense of relieve when I accompanied Ellie to the clinic today.


On the way to the clinic, both of us were silent, still.
Ellie kept pressing the buttons on her phone, she must be feeling more nervous now.
The weird thing is, I was not nervous, instead, looking forward to the result, as it marks the answers to my own questions.

At the clinic, we had a different receptionist, she should be in her mid 30s.
She was very pleasant too, she led Ellie to the same room where she spoke to the counsellor.
I was waiting outside for her, now, i felt nervous for Ellie, my hands were sweating, and I couldn't sit still.
The 10mins wait seemed to be eternity, when Ellie came out of the room, she told me that the results were negative.
I was elated, but I saw the sorrow in Ellie's eyes.

E: It's negative, I don't have AIDS.
Me: That's great! Let's have dinner and announce this news to Cameron shall we?
E: No, he doesn't wish to see me. I wanna go home.

We took a bus home, I'd decided to send Ellie home as she'd need someone to support her.
On the way home, she still kept quiet, and I didn't know what to say either.
Somehow, I missed the old Ellie whom would always be talking and cracking jokes.
We sat beneath her block, Eleanor looked into my eyes, so deeply.
I knew she wanted to speak to me.

Me: babe, you have something to say? You can tell me, I'll always be here.
E: Although, it was negative, I cheated on Cameron, and lied to you. I had sex with him when I was with Cameron.
Me: Does Cameron know about this?
E: No, I don't wish to tell him either. I don't deserve him.
Me: You mean you don't wish to patch back things?
E: No, he loathes me. I'm cheap. Jesse, will you hate me? Since I lied to you..
Me: Of course not.

I gave Ellie a supportive hug, I've gotten my answers.
I'm not angry with her, but instead pity.
When I reached home, I called Trey and had a long chat.
Trey was very understanding, and supportive.
Although, he disliked her, he still told me to be with her, since she's my best friend.
The relationship of Eleanor and Cameron is a pity.
Maybe, Ellie had learnt a lesson, and lost someone dear due to her actions.
She'll always be the dear girl I love..


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