You never looked so goodas you did last night, underneath the city lights. ♥ ♥ ♥ |
Baby, i'll find a way to shine just for you. ♥ ♥ ♥ |
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Tuesday, March 3, 2009My Not So Secret Lives endingToday's the day. On the way to the clinic, both of us were silent, still. Ellie kept pressing the buttons on her phone, she must be feeling more nervous now. The weird thing is, I was not nervous, instead, looking forward to the result, as it marks the answers to my own questions. At the clinic, we had a different receptionist, she should be in her mid 30s. She was very pleasant too, she led Ellie to the same room where she spoke to the counsellor. I was waiting outside for her, now, i felt nervous for Ellie, my hands were sweating, and I couldn't sit still. The 10mins wait seemed to be eternity, when Ellie came out of the room, she told me that the results were negative. I was elated, but I saw the sorrow in Ellie's eyes. E: It's negative, I don't have AIDS. Me: That's great! Let's have dinner and announce this news to Cameron shall we? E: No, he doesn't wish to see me. I wanna go home. We took a bus home, I'd decided to send Ellie home as she'd need someone to support her. On the way home, she still kept quiet, and I didn't know what to say either. Somehow, I missed the old Ellie whom would always be talking and cracking jokes. We sat beneath her block, Eleanor looked into my eyes, so deeply. I knew she wanted to speak to me. Me: babe, you have something to say? You can tell me, I'll always be here. E: Although, it was negative, I cheated on Cameron, and lied to you. I had sex with him when I was with Cameron. Me: Does Cameron know about this? E: No, I don't wish to tell him either. I don't deserve him. Me: You mean you don't wish to patch back things? E: No, he loathes me. I'm cheap. Jesse, will you hate me? Since I lied to you.. Me: Of course not. I gave Ellie a supportive hug, I've gotten my answers. I'm not angry with her, but instead pity. When I reached home, I called Trey and had a long chat. Trey was very understanding, and supportive. Although, he disliked her, he still told me to be with her, since she's my best friend. The relationship of Eleanor and Cameron is a pity. Maybe, Ellie had learnt a lesson, and lost someone dear due to her actions. She'll always be the dear girl I love.. Get involved with Jesse and Trey today @ www.notsosecretlives.com Sunday, September 7, 2008Give it t youuuu ;DNow playing - Rihanna; Take a bow I'm back blogging (: Thanks peeps; <3<3<3 Birthday pressies; Let me recall ~ # Outing w Papa, Xian, Karen, Ben, Gibson, Didi (: # Outing w Shijie, Gibson, Mao, Marcous, HanBin, Bert, Jordan (: # Outing w Eileen, Jiaxun, Gary, Song Jun, Wei Si (: # Forever 21 top # Top shop button tee # Guess white small wallet # Guess white big wallet # Forever 21 shade # Forever 21 necklace # Club Marc blue sandels # Club Marc White heels # Silver havianas # Bobbi Brown foundation # Dior Blusher # Lots of loveeeeeeeeee (: Okay, I might miss out some & i'm effin sorry. alrightttt; Lessons later on ): Wish me luck ~ Sunday, August 31, 2008Closed;Blogs are th roots of trouble. Therefore, it's closed. (: It'll never be happy.I dont get why everything's happening this way. Thank you daddy for celebrating w me tgt w ben, xian, didi, gibson, karen.. I love you guys x3 yes, more & more misunderstandings occurred. Somehow, it just suck t be like this. Why is it so, why is it that everything just came at th wrong time.. Th wrong people.. & those horribly coincidences. Somehow.. Felt like I need a break badly.. Tears just cant help but fall. Things after things, conflicts after conflicts.. It didnt seem like it's gonna stop. I wanna find someone t talk to.. but, why does it seems so difficult. Everytime I wanna utter somethin' it just.. seems t be a force stoping it. Swallowing everything t myself. Everything that I've blogged are very vague, no one's gonna know what happen unless asking. But, it's just so difficult to share my burden. It seems like theres no one suitable. Friday, August 29, 2008It's no longer a happy birthday..Now Playing -- Fall for you Yea, it's no longer a happy birthday.. Realising how some friends can be like.. & how families gives up on youu. Yes, I know its all reality. I still appreciate those people who stood by me.. & those who wished me happy birthday.. I love you guys; you all still remember! ;D Somehow, you'll get t know & realise who are those who you can really depend & confide on.. Yes, I'm still a child, without many knowledges. I do agree, I grew up a lil more cunning but vulnerable to people whom I really like. Apparently, I'd always get taken advantages of. I swear I do appreciate people around me. I love you mummy, I care alright.. (: Alot of problems occuring. & I'm gonnaaaaa get rid of allllllllllll of it! :D Friday, August 22, 2008ahahahahahahaha; Just reached home <3 Started talking t denden; Limbeh. Okay, today limbeh's post is so gonna be crude! Limbeh's new name is Saleisha Tan. LOLOLOL. The American Next Top model's name. Okay, enough w those madness. Went Hong Kong Cafe for my three-meals-a-day. ;X Muah chee, maggie mee, lychee drink, Mango Ice Kachang. Super filling. x( Today watched Meet Dave, fucking funny okay. "I'm gonna fetch you the moon" Awwwww, so sweet. ): Okay, rate it 3½ out of 5 :D Then went bunk to slack & zak saw my beloved papa <3 AHHH ! Misses * Nothing much happened, went home after that ^^ Anyway, find the world so realistic. Cause this guy that knew me years ago when I still look like a big fat, tanned, fugly girl whom actually bad mouthed about my looks; came to add me in friendster. That's pretty shocking. I doubt he know that was that fugly girl! Anyway, had a great laugh LOL (: PICTURES ! W Mardy! :D   @ Th Cafe    Cam whored              Monday, August 18, 2008Somehow, just dont feel like sleeping; 1;40am. Just finished pure biology. Only covered half the chapter, hence continue-ing tomorrow. well, today's quite a disappointing day.. Ben, I'm utterly disappointed. Even those effort t help you confirming th attendance, you don't even wanna make some effort t find people & conduct that stupid run. Just going mia & what excuse are you gonna use th next time rd? Helping you time after time, siding you time after time. You still never change.. Well, leopard doesn't change its spots & this is what you're like. Doesn't appreciate never mind, but why cant you just do what you should do. making everyone so pissed off, withdrawing from it. I guess that's what you wanted yea? After that, went home.. & bought some stuffs t cheer myself up. & therefore promised myself the diet plan.. Fruits, mineral water, & non oily food. x fast food x fried food & plenty of exercise. F. people t go gym w me during Wednesdays & Thursdays! ): Alright, friends please help! Oh ya, kinda came up w this wish list for birthday w Gibson ;x Th thought of it makes me excited! xP #New wallet #NUM bag #Faint pink havianas #Shades; black #Jacket/Hoodie #Top shop pink/purple wooden sandal #New tops; forever 21, top shop Okay, I'm not being greedy hor! ;X Goodnight, try to fall asleep ): |
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0409 Moving on. Dependent Hostile <3
SMU; Pink Havainas White Num Bag Gucci wallet Fragrance Princess by Vera Wang Flower by Kenzo Gucci -- The Hulk It's a Boy Girl thing Money return This week's timetable Slack 19/08/08; Tuesday School; Horntail School; Extra Lessons! 21/08/08; Thursday School; Gym 22/08/08; Friday School; Bunk 23/08/08; Saturday - 24/08/08; Sunday - Leave me somethin' affiliates
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